Friday, December 22, 2006
Otanjoubi omedetou, Sakura 'nee!
Pagbigyan na.
Yes naman, legal na kami dito sa Pilipinas! Wahahahaha. Sa Japan, actually, hindi pa (doon, legal ka pa lang pag naging 21 ka na). Sa US, legal rin yata.
YEY!
Haha. O sige, balik-English na. Wahaha!
Well, we're having Sak's debut (and mine, too, I guess?) on the 30th. :D You guys know that... you got the invitation long ago. Don't know if I should share this, but I'll be wearing a white and gold suit and Sak will be wearing a red gown, and we'll be medieval people amongst all of you who will be wearing black... how'd you like that? Hahaha... I have to admit, it's kinda cool. Although I feel bad that I wasn't part of the planning (my twin did everything, from the theme, to the set, to the invites, to the seating and physical arrangements, to the flowers and food and venue, the clothes... everything! Basically, all I had to do was go home!), that won't stop me from enjoying the night. It isn't everyday you celebrate the day you turn eighteen, right? Haha... and in a really fascinating way, nonetheless! All of you have to go! Remember: The Conservatory at Manila Peninsula on the 30th at 7:30 pm!!!
Oh, it's so good to be home. :)
P.S. Is this the first time I posted my face on this blog? Boo. Haha! I'll take that down as soon as I feel like it. :P
{9:53 AM}
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Snippets of Creative Writing Class
Q's:
1) When it comes to the music, what is the focal point for you? What drives you to be in music?
2) By the same token, what is missing in music if you don't like it, or find it uninspired?
3) What pivotal event in your life has shaped you to be what you are now?
4) How do you see yourself a decade from now - what are the changes you hope you will see, and what are the changes that you are afraid of?
5) And the question of love: how open-minded can you be about love and relationships?
A's:
1) I have had a love for listening to music for a large fraction of my life, as I am very adept, sensory-wise. I had always been inclined to audiovisuals and kinesthetics. I guess a little while after I started recognizing music as a big part of my life and something that had the potential to shape my character greatly, I became interested in learning more about it, and further than that, living my life for it. Nowadays, music for me isn't just about listening to things, or playing instruments, or recording or going to gigs--it's quite more than that, from the little things I learn to be able to improve, the perspectives I get to change when I open myself to other musicians and styles, and the experiences that affect me not just as a kiddie musician, but as a person. I fell in love with it, I think. After I started taking everything seriously, the flow of my life just went by at such a natural rhythm, and although it is by no means constant or secure, life in music gives me progress and a sense of fulfillment that motivates to stay inside of that spectrum for a long time.
2) (based on the understanding of the previous question) This doesn't necessarily apply all the time, but lately sometimes what I feel is missing in my musical experience is the fun and the flexibility, due to an imbalance of work, pressure and the need for relentless dedication. It doesn't make me hate what I have to do, but sometimes it makes me love it a little less, or provides me with less enthusiasm for it. I think it's a given that I'm more inspired and more appreciative of the things I do for music in a more free and more conducive atmosphere. Especially nowadays, sometimes I feel like it's, dramatically speaking, taking away my childhood, and asking for a lot of sacrifices that aren't so easy to make. But I guess like anything we're bound to love, it has a difficult side, and for now I'm pretty confident that it's all going to be worth it.
3) I think the greatest precursor for the changes affecting the formation of my character was my move from the Philippines to the US. Even if that was only a few months ago, and it was I who made the decision, I still feel that it was one of the hardest things I ever had to do, to leave my first real home and start a new life on totally foreign ground. The move was what taught me that no form of security lasts forever, and in order to thrive I had to adapt, be independent and open to change. I had to struggle to learn to live alone, make new friends and experience a different culture firsthand. Had I not moved, I suppose I would've grown into someone more bratty, more ignorant and more aloof. I'm happy that it seems to weigh less on the side of the extremes.
4) A decade from now, I don't know where I wanna see myself. I'm collecting scattered images of me at 27 to 28, either still trying to find purpose in the corporate world and in the Music scene, taking a master's degree a frillion miles away, or already married and with kids. By this time, I'd like to hope that I'm either more industrious, more driven or more productive with the things that go on in my life. Conversely, even if it seems appealing, I hope that change doesn't come in the form of developing the more disagreeable attitudes that I have, like pessimism targeting individual progress and apathy towards growing vices.
5) The thing is, I'm not really sure. For any kind of relationship, a lot of the same sentiments apply. For one thing, sometimes I feel I'm not as open to love as I used to be, because I don't trust it as much anymore. I lose a little more hope every time a relationship fails, destroys itself or wears itself out, and sometimes I get tired of expecting the same kind of hurt to happen over and over again. Regarding open-mindedness, to a degree I'm a lot more discriminating about my standards for people and how they are, but more for the sake of caution rather than malice.
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Becoming more and more eloquent each day sounds like a good thing. Literally. :P
Can't contain the excitement!!! I'm coming home soon!!! :)
{4:27 AM}
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